Happy new year 2009

Hello everyone!!This is my obligation self-imposed. I am one of the earliest people who welcome the year 2009.
Best regards,
Mer

Scorched earth policy

In the event of war we usually don't leave anything valuable when we left the place to retreat. We destroy almost everything including houses, buildings, and fuels,etc. This is called scorched earth policy in general.

In peace time as nowadays we always throw away luncheon, fish, meat whose date best before expired without making the most of. They think it's better to throw away rather than selling at dumping price. It neither decrease demand nor increase supply. They think it decrease demand and increase supply if they sell them at dumping price, which affects a lot in their commerce after all.

Is there any difference between war time and peace time in the act of ourselves? The answer is no.

Nostalgia

I watched some movie. That was a movie whose age setting is late '60s and the real event took place in Tokyo. It was about 40 years ago. I found a lot of nostalgic site in a movie we don't usually see these days.

At the end of the movie I found the location was not in Tokyo, but in Kitakyushu, one of the local town in Japan. Tokyo must have changed completely because it has been a cutting edge of development. On the other hand, Kitakyushu is almost a deserted town left behind the times of prosperity once this town enjoyed in prewar Japan. This town is deserted after energy revolution from coal to oil.

There's a utility to be left behind the times.

Love & love-not

My ex ex girlfriend who was 4 years senior to me once confessed her defect is her impossibility of love. She said she can't love anyone. She repeatedly slept with other guys while we live together for about a year.

Other three guys - a young French guy, who once stayed in Japan. She spent a month in Lyon while we are still in love. One Japanese guy who is the same age as hers. She had known him since the age 20. She married a friend of his, but actually she liked him. A guy who is five years senior to her. This love affair triggered off our separation in the end.

Her only contribution to me was I was able to separate from her without a problem. She might have wanted, but I not.

On the other hands, my current common-law wife. I found her in tears when I suggested a temporary separation. I couldn't stay her alone. Now I realised it is hard to separate from her. This is another inconvenience of competence in love.

On love

We can't live on without love. We can't live on only love. I had wanted to acquire an objective of love for a long time. And now I started thinking I need another objective of love once I started living with my love.

It's safe to keep on loving self. It's dangerous to start loving someone other than yourself.
I can't say I love you to one whom I love. It's because of the danger of loving others.

I couldn't ask even her name. She left me for somewhere.

Earl grey

By bullet train Nozomi super-express it takes just 15 minutes from my lodging to my hometown, which is 34 miles away. It takes 2 or 3 minutes to make Earl Grey, my favourite tea I often have. I refreshed myself today. I had a lot of things for two days this weekend. We are busy this special season. I stick to it again tomorrow.

Strange expression

You may do it.-- that's what I am often told in my workplace.

For them 'do' means the same as 'live'. Probably we are asking 'May we live?'
'You may do it.' means ' You may live' in their context.

Paradoxical untruth

You cannot divide and rule unless you have enough power. That's why Romans succeeded to do it. I was able to observe in a company we have direct employees and dispatched labourers and the former watch the latter. A workplace is successfully ruled without watching by employers.

About 30,000 dispatched labourers lost their job recently. There is a difficulty in employing a dispatched labourer permanently. I hope the regulations of dispatched labour as in that of before 2004. Only 8 special jobs used to allowed to hire a dispatched labourer before 2004, now the number of jobs is 24.

After all they all will be fired. In the end this move will lead to the end of dispatched labour.

You may go home earlier than a regular hour. That's what my colleague said. I don't want to work less than 8 working hours in a day. Oftentimes we are forced to leave the workplace before working 8 hours, owing to a current recession. Am I glad? Yes, if I can get a wage of 8 working hours by working less than 8 working hours. But things are not. I feel disappointed if I cannot work for 8 hours.

This is the paradoxical untruth. It is paradoxical at a glance and also it is not truth. One of my supervisors many years ago said it's good for the sake of you to choose 6 hours working in a day instead of 7.5 hours in a day because I can work many days -5 as opposed to 4 in a week. Total working hours in a week was 30 those days. This is also paradoxical untruth. My supervisor recommended 6 hours to me because it's convenient for the company.

Many years ago one of my colleague who only finished the course in junior high school told me those who need to learn more go to high school. Those who finished high school need to study more go to colleague. Therefore those who merely finish junior high are wiser than others. This seems paradoxical but truth.

Dispatched labourer

After working about a year I feel more and more the limitations of being a dispatched labourer. I can't always work 8 hours in a day. I have to do whatever they command. I cannot speak out my opinion, suggestions. I have to take a day off without compensations when no lines operate.

How hideous this situations are! I intend to be employed directly next time. We don't know anything unless we do. It was not totally useless experience.

Ah.. adjustment

Humans can become whoever, can get accustomed to any environment. - word of Dostoevskii

I came here Kokura to start a new life with a woman. She became my common-law wife. About one year has passed. I want to move back to Hakata where my house is located. Because I've got many friends there. I need to make up my mind early next year.

I'm not sure whether she agrees to move with me. She has a job and needs to keep in touch with her three kids here.

Legally speaking I am still a husband of a woman whom I got married to fourteen years ago. I am not a public figure. This fact belongs to my personal things.

A couple of days ago I wrote this musings and kept in my draft. Today again I asked her whether she moves with me. She said yes.

I need to find a job there. It's relatively easy to find a job but hard to keep on working the same job.

Free & poor

If we have a lot of free time and little money, we tend to be disciplinary. Disciplinary itself is a favourable word. We don't even try to be disciplinary if we are busy and earn a lot of money. We are disciplinary in nature.

As our factory gets free time more, our any deed is checked. Now it became supervisor's job.

Two wives

I've got two wives. One is my legal wife and the other my common-law wife.

Legally speaking I am still a husband of a woman whom I got married to fourteen years ago. We separated after 3 years of cooperation. After nearly 5 years of separation once we divorced. But I agreed to remarry her after 6 month period of divorce since I couldn't pay $30,000 alimony. Divorce is not easy at all in our country and marriage has much to do with economy. She has been gladly receiving some benefit from a part of my income.

I am not a public figure and I don't regret my past. This fact belongs to my personal things.

I met my current common-law wife nearly three years ago. I started a new life with her one year ago here in Kokura.

I hadn't explain much about it and I had been roughly using the word 'My wife' in both cases. I've got to add I have been keeping a very good relations with my wives, which means my legal wife remains to be one of my best friends.

My recent dream on having a physical relationship with a friend of my legal wife reminds me of my being unable to banish my past event at all.

No one realise how big the meaning of marriage is before marrying someone, but everyone realises when they think about divorce. Because everyone wants to gain something but no one wants to lose anything.

Interpretation of a dream

I am on very good terms with my wife.
Last night I had a dream of sleeping with her best friend. She is very pretty. We have been in good friendly relationship through my wife.
I have been very loyal to my wife. Is it my hidden desire to have intimate relation with her. I felt shocked!

Why our grandpas were a teacher

In our ordinary conversation.. what were your grandpas doing? He was a principal, etc.. Oh, my grandpa was also a principal...

Between late 19c to several decades of early 20c this country had a lot of wars with foreign countries.
There are many cases the job of our grandpa was a teacher and sometimes a doctor. Because teachers were not conscripted, let alone a doctor. As a result they survived in homeland. That's why their off-springs flourished in current country.

The job of guard

I met a difficult situation when I was working as a night-watch. A young girl who are working in a room at the building asked me to help because she was kicked out of the room by her male supervisor. It took two or three hours to solve the situation and she was able to get her belongings successfully and she got home. She asked me to keep secret because it was a shame for both her and her boss. And I kept secret completely. I didn't report to the building owner. Because of the incident I couldn't patrol two times in this hour I am supposed to do. I was fired for not patrolling properly. I am still proud of my not reporting to a building owner. I was fired because I was loyal to my job that was really what I should do. And I had just done it.

Real crime

Takeshi Koizumi 46 is as old as I am. He reported himself to the police that he killed two Mr an Mrs former top official of the Ministry of Health. He keeps on insisting that his murder was the revenge of the killing of his pet dog 34 years ago by health authority. His motif is very strange and he will be sent to a hospital to judge his mental ability, though, his real crime was to occupy certain hours in prime time TV. All main political and economical issues that's what we want to discuss were disappeared for a few days.

Misunderstanding

I had thought that the law rules the world when I was young probably in my teens. Now I am amazed to find that the law doesn't work well in the real world. I learned the world through reading a book and now I learned it was a typical misunderstanding. Law is merely a reflection of the real world and the law doesn't reflect the real world well. The meaning of 'law and order' is law and synonymous word order, but now I see 'law and command' instead. Unpleasant news of mass dismissal continues. -Honda 490, Isuzu 1400, and Canon 1117.

Doubt & Lie

It's not a bad thing or just a natural thing for people to tell lies. But it's a bad thing for people to not trust someone or doubt about someone's word. Unfortunately our any candid word can contain misinformation or misunderstanding for others. We tend to be inevitably lyer for others out of simply because of the nature of words themselves hold. We ought not to blame others for any misunderstanding including lying. Misunderstanding is also a kind of understanding. Doubt and lie are synonymous. Those who don't tell lies never know doubt.

Christian values and the existence of God

I believe Christian value is very good. Altruism, love and sacrifice. Nobody can't know whether God really exists. God exists or does not exist, which is regardless of whether people believe in God. Do those who believe in God really show altruism, love and sacrifice? I think Christian values and existence of God are not mutually related.

I think there are many people who believe in Christian values but don't believe in God. I think that's natural.

The role of religion

Many many years ago I had a chance to attend the church service for about a year.
Some one who had been attending the church with his son was eventually dead from cancer in several months.
A married couple was attending the church and one day they took their son with probably the last stage of jaundice. Soon after that they stopped coming.

It was much deeper than I thought the feeling people sought for religion.

Reflections of a month

Mistake
2008.11.22 21:14
 We need to make an environment that allows those who made a mistake. Because if mistake is not allowed, someone who made a mistake starts blaming or being attribute to other one who actually hadn't make a mistake.
We often see this in rigid organisation.

Group psychology
2008.11.22 21:03
 Group psychology has some reason since they think majority is right.

Small world
2008.11.22 20:59
 One of the risks we live in a small world is we tend to be particular about small things.

Allowance
2008.11.12 5:26
 Our government decides to pay a fixed allowance to each national. Ordinary adults get paid $120 and age more than 65 and less than 18 get paid $200, so average household get received $640.
We need money so simply I'm glad that. But what really we need is a steady job, pay increase, a regular bonus, tax cuts. Our government left all these problems and gives us just allowance. I feel sorry but we need to call ourselves a beggar at last.

The meaning of civilian control
 2008.11.09 15:20
 94 member of air self defence force submitted theses to private thesis competition. Total number of people who submitted was 235. A head of air self defence force got the first prize and $300,000.
  His theme was 'Japan was not an invader nation'.
  9 out of ten people would say no to his idea. But it's just ok to have various opinions, however..it is questionable if it were an opinion of current head of armed forces.
  The meaning of civilian control is it is civilian that decides the use of force. A head of armed forces ought not to express their idea while they are in charge. It is very natural for government to insist the return of retired money from former head of armed forces. He was fired but received the money of $600,000.
  I'm not sure whether he returns but I hope anyone who is a head of armed forces keep silent, especially when it comes to political opinions. Please make sure that.  

Wind from China
2008.11.09 15:00
 They say Japan is an industrialised nation. As a matter of fact there are many factories located off the coast. We have been sometimes suffered from polluted air, especially from the one called 'photochemical smog'.
  We used to have a severe state in that. Now the contents of smoke is very regulated and said to be safer than those of in many years ago. But still we have smog problems.
  We started claiming that the polluted air is arriving from newly industrialised coastal China since few years ago. Japanese people are good at attributing to next nations when it comes to something unpleasant. Japanese local government regulates the quantity of smoke emission by the degree of polluted air. If the harmful material exceeds the standard, factories have to stop or decrease the production to meet the criteria.
  Japanese factories increase production again after it was restricted, insisting that because it is owing to Chinese factories to exceed the level of pollution.
  The gross of polluted material, that matters, no matter who comes up the pollution.

Not yet understanding
 2008.11.09 13:08
 Her former husband went to mountain to pick out the cloud. I added detergent to the well to try to sanitise the water in it. I really couldn't understand where saliva is from when I didn't take any water. I had thought the car direction indicator was lit automatically. I had thought the antenna is automatically directed to the broadcasting centre. I really couldn't understand the meaning of 'World heritage' because heritage meant all left money at that time for me. I thought all people speak Japanese because all film stars talk in Japanese. Only later I realised they are interpreted.

Jack of all trades
2008.11.09 12:43
 Fuji film starts selling cosmetics. Kanebo was established as a yarn company and later it started selling cosmetics. Toyota was first making a weaving machine. Sharp improved a mechanical pencil first and later it went to electronics industry. Sony started making a solid-state radio and now selling a life insurance, too.

Soup in noodles
 2008.11.06 23:14
 17 year ago I had a Filipina girlfriend. She made me noodles one day and she insisted I drink all the soup of noodles because it's healthy.
At that time we had no custom to drink up all the soup. We just left it and throw away.
Time has passed. Our company asked us at lunch we are supposed to drink it up all the soup because it's insanitary to throw away into a sink.
I now drink up all the soup because I don't like to waste nutrition.
We are becoming stingy whatever the reason.

Aim
2008.11.06 22:53
 Hideyoshi changed his job 30 times before he started serving in samurai under Nobunaga. His aim was to rule the world, not merely serve in one job.
I changed my job 15 or 16 times. My aim is to be a good writer.
Still long way ahead.

What they seek for
 2008.11.06 22:36
 Wives and kids seek for stability, security, and reliability. They seek for manly man, not a sissy boy. A wife with her kids who were told from their hubby or dad who came out that he is gay hid themselves.
The guy or gay consulted one famous gay that he wants to see them. No way.
We need only one woman in a house. We don't need another woman in the same household.

Illusion of smokers
2008.11.06 22:05
 We entered a Spanish restaurant at 13:40. It was non-smoking hours from 11 to 14.
5 minutes past 14, two old women started smoking beside us. Of course I left there.
You cannot smoke from 11 to 14 doesn't mean you can smoke except 11 to 14, but means you ought not to smoke throughout all business hours but especially you mustn't smoke from 11 to 14 or lunch time.
Smokers don't understand the meaning because they smoke.

The mystery of working hours
2008.11.05 21:56
 We usually believe we can get more money working in 8 hours than in 6 hours. If we can earn $80 in 8 hours we tend to feel it's natural to earn $60 in 6 hours.
That's strange.
We can get two extra hours for taking a rest or pleasure in case of working just 6 hours. How can we spend this 2 hours in less paid money. We have to spend extra money in this extra hours. We need a compensation for this 2 hours if we had to work only 6 hours instead of 8 hours in a day.
We need to get paid $80 x 4/3 or $107 for working 6 hours. We sell time and buy money in working hours. We sell money and buy time in pleasure hours.

Failure in China
2008.11.05 21:07
 Famous musician Tetsuya Komuro was arrested for his involvement in deception. He proposed to sell his 806 songs copyrights in 1 billion dollars to a wealthy investor. He had gotten 500 million dollars, but he didn't give them away. He had a debt of 1 billion dollars.
He used to earn 2 billion dollars in a year.
He had lost 7 billion dollars in Hongkong. He started his investment in Hongkong in Dec. 1996 just one year before the return to China.
Yaohan collapsed after its headquarters moved to Shanghai.
We people from a small country get overwhelmed by a sea of people in China. China is not simply a country, but a continent just the same as Europe, America. We never understand that.

Mrs Marquise de Sade
2008.11.03 11:04
 This is a play written by Mishima.
Mishima once wrote he can describe more things better in plays rather than in novels.
Jean Genet started writing novels first then later he wrote plays.
Shakespeare was a playwright.
I just once tried writing a play. Just once.
This play was performed just once in some local theatre. I noticed after the play was performed. I thought I went to see the play if I noticed it before.
Some popular drama has been performed two or three times in a day and lasts for six months, would be watched by many. Mrs Marquise de Sade is not watched by many but few, but the few would go to see the theatre without fail.

The feeling of falling in love
2008.11.03 9:09
 About more than a year ago I encountered a woman in a local town. I fell in love at first sight. It was actually hard for me to explain the feeling of it in a word. She seemed ideal and perfect to me. I just talked to her a couple of word near her office. Her office and mine happened to be very close and she happened to live near my house though I didn't seek to know exactly where.
She started wearing a ring in her left hand sometime after I talked to her. I tried to forget her ignore her though the effort was in vain. All the more I felt affectionate with her the more I tried to forget her.
She disappeared from my sight sometime around March this year.
It is enigmatic and inexplicable to hold the feeling of falling in love, but it is true that I fall in love with her. I don't know her name, many things on her. It is hard to get over the feeling of it, still I have no way to ease it.      

Marriage rings
2008.11.02 22:11
 We went out to buy a marriage ring. My size is 17 inches and hers is 7. I had many options but she had scarce or just one option. I didn't like the shape of the ring so we didn't buy it.
First rings I bought were made in platinum, Acquascutum. 500 bucks each. The second ring I bought for pleasure was made in silver 925. 22 bucks. The third ones will be... not sure yet.
We had many options in kinds of precious metals recently. Fine steel, silver coated by platinum, silver with 5% platinum included. But I like a ring made by only silver. I recall Biblical times in Old Testament whenever I see silver rings. Silver is warmer and softer.

Cars
 2008.11.02 20:50
 I rode several cars in the past. First car I rode was March, Nissan. The second one I rode was not mine but my my girlfriend's that was Benz. Basically she rode it but sometimes I did.
The third one was Cultus, Suzuki. This was the only car that I operated the gear in manual shift. I liked this car most. This car was arranged exclusively for my job by my company those days. I appreciated that much.
The fourth one was Pulsar, Nissan. I had this car collided several times and had engine trouble after I sent it to a regular car inspection. I had this car scraped after riding only several years.
Now the fifth one I ride is Tiida, Nissan.
I normally use neither a car nor a bicycle. On foot basically.
I have a gold licence holder, which means 'excellent'.

A spoonful of sea water
2008.10.24 23:32
 Events around me is likely to be events around the world.
Events that occurred around me are simultaneously and spontaneously occurring around the world.

Very common remark
2008.10.23 22:12
 What was your worst job ever?
It was being a husband.
What was your best job ever?
It was being a father.
  -From the cinema 'Dawn of the dead'

Metaphychology of being cheated
2008.10.22 23:51
 Everyone is subject to being cheated. Why? Because everyone is subject to telling lies.
We want others to believe in what we said, and we know we told lies before. So we are eager for others to believe in in spite of the fact that we told lies.
This phychology becomes the energy of being cheated reversely.
Others must believe in what we said that includes lies. What others said must have included lies, but it's our turn to believe in them.

Ship house
2008.10.21 20:34
 We went to see her parent in her home town.
There some people live in a small ship called 'ship house' off the island.
Back in our house I heard from her that her mother owns house but not land.
They lived in a very rural fisherman's village. Her late husband left the message in the way of their ownership in house and land.
She lives in a latter-day ship house, and that is what her late husband wanted her to do.

I like nothing
2008.10.21 19:12
 The pressure of billion dollars made my breath often hard and irregular. I find sometimes stop breathing while I'm asleep.
I like nothing instead of millions. I can bear the pressure of nothing but couldn't millions.
I am happy to be born with a little.

Linear motor car
2008.10.21 18:57
 By 2025 the linear motor car will connect between Osaka and Tokyo in 50 to 60 hours with 500 per kilometre while we were glad to hear Kogoshima and Hakata will connect in traditional bullet train in a few years.
Never will the rural people catch up with the city residents.

What makes me deluded?
 2008.10.21 18:25
 Poisonous chemical substances floating in the sky of Kokura. Monotonous and dismal job life. Happy and exclusive life with my partner. I think I am somebody but not well evaluated.

After the delirium
2008.10.21 17:37
 ..      

Who's cheated?
2008.10.21 17:09
 People who tell lies tend to be cheated.

Happiness & Money
 2008.10.21 17:07
 Happiness can make money, but money can't make happiness.

My world
 2008.10.20 23:44
 Everybody lives in 'my' world.